So. I’ve just had my check in for the end of January. And in the end I only lost 2 kgs, but considering I had quite a few major lapses this month, and didn’t really get started until 1 week into Jan I’m trying not to feel too frustrated.
Serves as a handy reminder that I’ll need to be focused and consistent if this is going to work for me.
I wrote up my new schedule and it looks loosely like this:
Mon, Wed, Fri - crossfit at 6.15 am / run at 4
Tues, Thurs - pilates at 6 am / bikram at 4
Saturday - something fun in the am - run, bike, walk, yoga
Sunday - something light in the am - bikram, run, walk, run
Trying to be ambitious but realistic.
I’d like to think I can definitely get in 10 sessions, but I’ve scheduled 12 to give myself the option to miss a couple each week if I’m worn out, sore or really just not feeling it. It also leaves things open to life getting in the road a bit.
3 x crossfit (300 cals)
2 x pilates (300 cals)
2 x bikram (or vinyasa) (600 cals)
2 x run (300 cals)
1 x something lighter (300 cals)
+ 5 bike commutes (400 cals)
Intake stays at approx 1200-1500 cals. Output aiming for approx 1000 each day. Weekends slightly more relaxed with less output.
I’m also doing a Transcendental Meditation course in a couple of week to try and get the stress stuff under control. So would like to work 2 blocks of 15 minutes of meditation into my routine each day.
The great thing is that even after 1 month I might not have lost much weight, but I am starting to see changes. Feeling tighter, fitter, my performances are already improving at crossfit.
I’m not struggling with everything like I used to. I got really upset last week because I felt so revolting after a weekend of out and out gorging myself. But I’m just realising I need to pick the people I have around me carefully. I guess that’s where the lifestyle part of this is a challenge. But I also need to recognise that only I can make the right choices for me.
Part of the problem for me is really not wanting to rock the boat when I’m out with friends. I don’t want to be that girl who’s hard work, who eats funny, who makes a big deal about food. I don’t want to be high maintenence. This is actually pretty consistent throughout my life - always easy to get on with, avoiding conflict, playing along. I think there’s some serious emotional/food stuff there that probably needs to be explored in more detail.
But my naturopath told me ages ago “they’re eating what they want to eat - why shouldn’t you be able to eat what you want to eat?” I think it’s going to be really important to remember that.
This is going to be a challenge for me forever. I can relax when I’m 30 kgs down and feeling fit and healthy. For now, it is pedal to the metal and get my body feeling good - lean and strong.